Okay, it's 2014 and I'm stopping to think. The finish line is in the distance. The only regret I have in life is the few times that I was mean to someone. I tried to find them all to apologize but I couldn't, so all I can do is be kind to others.
The only thing in this life, perhaps, that matters is compassion, yet I find so little of it. These right-wing conservative politicians I hear about everyday are beyond disgust and a waste of carbon. Yet, the dwindling angry white base keeps electing them in. They are backed with the putrid Koch brothers money and slimy and vile things keep rising to the surface. Yeah, Rep. Paul Broun I'm talking about you. I single you out by name because you are particularly a bad wart on a maggot.
I go through life jaded and cynical, but I keep wanting to find a way out of our mess, although my gut feeling tells me we are pretty much done. How can we destroy our home planet like a bunch of stupid parasites? Just how stupid are we? And all the violence, sexual abuse of children, thievery, and general disrespect toward one another is sad and pathetic.
I believe our biggest problem is that we are all so dysfunctional from our childhoods that we cannot effectively collaborate as a species, to move forward for the greater good. I get so discouraged from the beginning of any effort because people will argue about every small detail, they will throw roadblocks at you, and quickly drag you into the dirt. Nothing gets accomplished and this beautiful thing we call democracy has become a broken, and paralyzed mess.
As for Facebook, what a strange glimpse into the human psyche. You really get to see a lot of mental health problems come out in the open. People post away, thinking they are building some great persona, when, in reality, everyone is seeing their personality disorders first hand. I'm not sure what social media is doing to the world, but it's changing everything and I'm not sure it's for the better.
So, I'm thinking, all we have to do is identify a problem, work as a team, and fix it. I only wish we had strong personalities like Lyndon Johnson or Teddy Roosevelt, who could push a solution to a problem. Now, all our politicians are limp wienies.
I do think the entire Georgia state government is going insane. Real problems like transportation and helping the poor are pushed aside, and all the fucking legislature and wimpy governor care about are GUNS AND GOD. Personally, I sort of see a conflict between violent guns and peaceful Christianity, but not the stupid rednecks of Georgia. It's all about pushing their social agendas to please their Jesus huggin', gun totin' base. As the conservative movement collapses the political minions appear to get only more crazy.
So, what do I do? I am suppose to do my part to fight for justice and reason, even though I'm on a giant sinking ship. If I do good work will that accomplish anything? No it won't, other than to make me feel better.
I guess my breaking point was when I worked so hard to get green county commissioners elected, and then they either quit, sold out, or were beat in the next election. My greatest successes in life were soon washed away and the developer-purchased puppets were soon back in power. And now, the developers and wealthy rule my county, and they continue with their corrupt ventures, while virtually ignoring the poor and needy. I want to vomit on their shoes.
So, cough, cough, I have vented. I just go through every day as a zombie. I only focus on survival and do my best to help others here and there. I try to make people smile and laugh every day. I particularly try to brighten the days of all the minimum wage service people I meet because I know their life sucks. Maybe if I can make them smile, laugh, or feel good for a brief moment, maybe I've at least accomplished something.
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